Today feels much better..about as good as it can possibly get while still feeling tired and just plain blehhh. Though now im just sad because Dax is at work all day and won't be home til around midnight, if we're lucky. All my family is out of town visiting my grandparents in san antonio. What a sad, lonely depressing weekend! We couldn't go because 1) we couldn't afford to 2) it would be impossible for Dax to get off work this weekend 3) now that i'm pregnant with such a sensitive stomach i doubt i would be able to sit in a car for 5 hours without getting carsick.

BOO!

I feel like i've had nothing happy to say about being pregnant!! haha thats just sad...
but as always i do have more to complain about!!

As you may or may not know...Pregnancy and Irritability tend to go hand in hand..and right now i can't help but feel NOTHING but irritable about the slightest most insignificant things. But then there are some things that actually do kind of matter that i feel i have every right to be irritable about!

EXAMPLE:

Dax's dad has a girlfriend. This girlfriends name is..well, let's call her "Girl"...Girl is i think, 36, and has 3 kids who are the ages of 12, 8, and 6. I, along with my awesome sister-in-law and my lovely husband tend to have a problem with the way these kids are raised and just the way they are in general. ANYWAYS, when dax's dad called to congratulate me he was talking about how Girl said she was too young to be a grandma but they were all really happy and excited and the kids can't wait to be aunts and an uncle.

Um, I'm sorry...what??

We've met those kids THREE freaking times...They aren't legally related to us in any way, shape or form..and we have no personal connection with those kids whatsoever. I'm sorry but i will NOT be referring to them as our childs Aunts and Uncles...that is just plain ridiculous. And as far as i'm concerned this baby will only have 2 grandmas...My mom and Susan!!! Unless his dad ends up marrying this person than i guess She will have to be considered their Grandma legally..but man...I think its a bit much to be letting the kids say they're going to have a neice or nephew. I told dax this via text and he laughed and agreed and said he needs to figure out how to tell his dad to cool it with those kids...He's waaay too far invovled in their lives and waay not involved in his ACTUAL children's lives.

Buhhh...Like i said or maybe i haven't said it..This all seems to be magnified by the fact that I'm highly irritable right now and under normal circumstances i probably would get irked and then shrug it off. But this is our baby we're talking about..I'm sorry if i'm already being over protective...its just how it is.

But it feels like by them calling themselves that, i feel like the actual aunts and uncles are, i don't know, being...oh crap i can't think of what it is i'm trying to say...you know...like their roles aren't going to seem as special now since these kids put themselves into the same category...does that work? Now, don't get me wrong...there are a few select people who we will be handing out the aunt and uncle card to who aren't actual family members, but those people have earned it...And i know that my sisters and sister-in-law would gladly share their titles with these few select people...because they also know and love these people like we do!!! I think what his dad should be focusing on is how my sister-in-law is ACTUALLY going to get to be a REAL aunt for the first time ever with this sweet little baby. He should be waaay more excited about his real child becoming an aunt, not some kids he thinks he needs to raise now.

I don't know, it's inevitable that there will be drama when new families come together like this, but i take comfort in knowing that i'm not the only one that feels this way...

(Now i have to sit back and hope that when my father-in-law comes to see his first grandbaby that the rest of his new family doesn't come along for the ride too...ughhhh)