3 months!!!

well, it appears i only ever seem to come on here to post every month. haha go figure...

Evie will be 3 months in just 3 days. time, slow down!!!! i can't believe how fast my sweet angel is growing. ughh!!!!! it makes me so sad, yet so happy to see her change SO MUCH everyday. she's been making all sorts of new noises and coos and it's absolutely the most heart-warming thing ever!! her eyes are still so amazingly bright and blue, i hope they stay that way forever..but who knows. she's started playing with her hands today too. SOOO PRECIOUS!!!! she absolutely adores her cousins, and they her. seriously, they always ask to hold her and are always taking care of her and carrying her around and smothering her in hugs and kisses. but really, who could not love such a sweet beautiful girl?!?!

i seriously am amazed at her beauty...sooo freaking beautiful!

i swear i fall in love with her more and more everyday, i could gush about her for hours on end.

on a sad note, today i was clipping her nails and i snipped the tip of her thumb. OH MY GOD I'VE NEVER FELT SO HORRIBLE! i know it happens to everyone but holy crap i felt like such a monster, a horrible mother!! i was just about in tears too and all i could do was hold her and tell her it was okay and how sorry i was. my poor sweet princess.

almost 2 months

I'm doing a horrible job of keeping up with this thing. mainly because i've had zero time to really be online..but since baby is getting older and keeping herself mostly entertained while she's awake i'm getting alot more internet time..so hopefully i'll start updating more often.

Evie is growing up so fast...it makes me so sad. She's changed sooo much. She is really good with making eye contact, she smiles and giggles all the time, especially at the tv or posters...her two favorite things. She likes to munch on her hand and blow bubbles, and she's been trying to coo for a few weeks now. Ah, i love her so much. She's just the cutest thing in the entire world. She looks more and more like dax and madison everyday, little stinker...

she loves to walk around the house and explore new things too. we're doing really good with breastfeeding, finally learned the correct latch and stuff..but we've been battling with thrush for a few weeks now and its KILLING me. ughhh...i asked her pedi about it but she said its not really thrush right now...but i sooo have all the symptoms..and they make me hurt soooo bad.

okay, well of course now she's awake and screaming her little head off. time to go.

whew

newborns are so hard! i always knew this but it's way different when you're doing it 24/7...nonstop, always being a parent. it's so crazy. i don't want to jinx it but baby is slowly getting better at eating and sleeping more regularly. except sometimes she only sleeps for several hours if she's laying on top of me. so of course i'm not getting good sleep at all. sighhh. one of these days our sleep will be back to normal. :(

i can't believe baby is already a month old. she's growing up so fast.

my 6 week post partum appt is next week, and possibly i may be getting the Mirena IUD implanted as well. we'll see. if so, we'll have birth control for 5 years. crazy.

anyhow i'm tired and i dont feel like typing anymore. eventually i'll get back into the swing of blogging.

oh hello blog

holy crap. i never get this much time to use the internet.

unfortunately this means my child will probably have me up ALL night, again.

so, i figure i'm going to continue writing here when i can because even though i'm not longer growing a fetus, i'm still, in a sense, "growing" my baby by feeding her and whatnot.

and p.s. breastfeeding sucks ass. i don't know how much longer i can do it, but i'm starting to think we're not cut out for this special bonding time. ugh, i hate that i'll feel like a total failure if i decide to give my child formula. damn you breastfeeding nazis for putting that idea into my head.

hooray she's here!

Evie June was born on May 17th @ 1:30 p.m. Weighing in at 6 lbs, 14 oz...and 18.5 in long.

i'll post a birth story later. for now, it's eating time for the munchkin.

i suck at this

i apparently suck at remembering to post belly photos on my freakin' PREGNANCY BLOG. what a dodo.

37 weeks today!!! finally full term! we move to our new huge apartment in 3 days! i had my appointment today and i'm still 1 cm dilated but now i'm 75% effaced...i told dax it went up so much cause of that sexin' we did the other day. oh, prostaglandins!

okay i'll post from weeks 33-37 since i apparently didn't do any of those. whomp. and also i dont like the way blogger posts pictures and baby is kicking the shit out of me for me to care enough to fix stuff..but the pics are going in backwards order. the top one is 37 weeks..and the bottom is 33.

eww!

I'm pretty sure i lost some of my mucous plug today.

pretty gross, i'm not gonna lie...but what can you expect of a PLUG made out of MUCOUS!?

ewww.


on a side note: today is mine and dax's 1 year wedding anniversary. awww.