super freakin' restless.

It must be a mix of the gorgeous weather, and it being the weekend but i'm super freaking restless right now. i want to get out and go DO something. not sit here and watch stupid movies i don't care about. dax's mom is coming by later and is teaching us to cook stuff, so we'll already be pent up in the house during that time. ughhhhhhhhhh. i want to get out while i still can and i'm tied down with a baby at home all alone.

my 30 week appointment was yesterday, usually my appointments are on tuesdays but my doc was out of the office that day so we had to make it friday. i passed my glucose screen with like a 92 or something. yay! that means no gestational diabetes for me.

we bought a childbirth class on dvd via ebay for like 11 bucks. which is awesome because even on amazon, used, it was still like 30 or 40 something. we watched pretty much all of the classes already...the next disc talks about medications and c-sections and forceps and vacuums. eesh. watching that video brought back all that fear about having to actually push a big ol' baby out of my body. i really almost started to cry and have an anxiety attack. i dont know how on earth i'm going to be when it hits me that this is it and it's time to do all the crap i've been learning about. i'm not good in situations like that.

i think i already picked out my focal point for laboring. hehehe. we have a framed picture of chewy on our coffee table and i think it would be the best focal point ever. staring at my baby, whether in real life or a picture, always makes me happy and feel better. i think he'll do a good job of helping me relax. i'm really nervous that when it comes down to it, i'm going to forget everything i've learned. like breathing and all that crap. i tend to be like that with everything. i can learn lots of stuff and tell you how to do it, but when it comes to me actually using it and translating it to my life, i can't do it worth a crap. i don't know why that is.

everyone is getting their invitations and that makes me happy. i can't wait for the shower, it's so soon! however, i do not enjoy being in the spotlight. blehhh. and the day before the shower we have a labor & delivery tour at the hospital. i'm excited about that too.

well, i guess this is all for today. i don't even know why i decided to update this thing.

week 30

There I am at 30 weeks. Today. Looking exhausted as all get out. I've not been sleeping well, waking up what feels like every 10 minutes to readjust because I can't get comfortable in any position. I think it's showing on my face just how exhausted I was today. That makes me sad. Tired Mama. It didn't help that I was out all day on very little rest. I even fell asleep at my mom's, laying on the couch. Sucks that tomorrow I have to work and be up early and the kids are home for Spring Break so that means I can't nap when Jon does.

I'll never not be tired. And I'm afraid i'm just going to start looking old.

We decided on a name, finally. yay!

Evie June Andress is what she will be called.

29 weeks!

so, since i'm doing the weekly belly photo now i figured i might as well post them on my pregnancy blog. makes sense, right??

it's been a week now since my glucose test and i haven't heard back...so i'm realllllly hoping this means i passed and they will just tell me that at my next appointment. i'm still afraid to celebrate though...

since i've been pregnant i've like, stopped sweating. completely. sometimes if i'm hot in the night i wake up with a clammy neck, but i don't sweat. period. it sucks because now i just get really overheated, really easily. but i swear since i've hit that third trimester mark ive been sweating everyday. not like major, horrendous sweating...but tiny little beads of sweat collecting around my face and nose and neck. i guess i'm finally going to be the typical third trimester sweating machine.

anyways, that's about all for now...i think!

Geez,

The closer i get to delivery..the more scared i get about having to ACTUALLY DO things...like, breastfeeding, and cloth diapering. I'm just really afraid of sucking at these things...or something, i don't know. :( I read up and researched different cloth diapers tonight and I feel better about them. Thinking about it doesn't make it seem so hard now--like how the eff do you clean them?? or which would be the best to have all-in-ones, fitted, prefolds with covers. ahh! So stressful.

Now breastfeeding seems like much more of a daunting task. Scary. Like, I'm reading how in the beginning you'll probably make too much milk and both sides will let down while youre feeding so to keep a wash cloth or something for the unused side. Then there's all the stress of not knowing whether or not you'll be able to breastfeed with ease or how baby will respond to it, if they'll be able to latch on or if you're doing it right...or knowing how much your baby is actually getting and all this stuff.

ugh, so stressful. now i'm just scaring myself so i'm going to stop thinking about all this crap.

THE FINAL COUNTDOWN

28 weeks!

Today marks the day that i've been waiting for. Well one of the days...i'm finally in the freaking third trimester. Looking back, it's gone by so fast...and yet there's still so much more to go! I have approximately 12 weeks left. I want to say hopefully nothing less than 12 weeks because we just won't be ready for her, but we've never been ready for her (seeing how she was a surprise) so it just may be her style to be here early, just like mommy. I guess we'll find out soon enough, let's not rush things.

I had my 28 week appointment today, and with that came the dreaded glucose screening. I've heard such conflicting information about this little test, how awful it is or how it's really not THAT bad. I finally got to see for myself. Doctors offices around the country always seem to have the orange flavored one..but mine was clear and I couldn't quite figure out what it tasted like and what it reminded me of. It definitely was ridiculously sweet, i'm surprised I didn't get a toothache! You have 5 minutes to drink it from when you get it and I took all 5 minutes to do just that. There was no way I could've chugged that crap, Yuck! Halfway through I was tired of it because it was just so sweet. But in all honesty it didn't have a bad flavor to it at all. I felt a little woozy afterwards but not nauseous, and I just kind of spaced out and got really tired. I saw my doctor and she said everything is looking good still, it's awesome that baby is moving so much, and that I come back in 2 weeks. Awesome. That means I go back every two weeks now until I get to like 36 weeks or something and then I go every week until baby is here. Yesss! After that it was an hour since I had drank the glucose drink and they drew my blood and I was done. Dax is coming with me to my next appointment since he didn't come today.

I've been having a ton of stupid braxton hicks contractions. They're such a pain in the ass, no, not literally. They're just super uncomfortable. They seem to happen more often in the evening, and especially if i've been out doing stuff all day. If i'm up walking around I have to stop and hold my belly, and bend over because I can't just keep walking through them. It's the strangest feeling to try and describe. I hope I don't go anywhere in public, alone, and have to do that...I don't want to freak people out with them thinking i'm in labor! How embarrassing!

Alright well, I thought I should post since this is a significant day for me! It's the last milestone (I think) before the big day.