whew

newborns are so hard! i always knew this but it's way different when you're doing it 24/7...nonstop, always being a parent. it's so crazy. i don't want to jinx it but baby is slowly getting better at eating and sleeping more regularly. except sometimes she only sleeps for several hours if she's laying on top of me. so of course i'm not getting good sleep at all. sighhh. one of these days our sleep will be back to normal. :(

i can't believe baby is already a month old. she's growing up so fast.

my 6 week post partum appt is next week, and possibly i may be getting the Mirena IUD implanted as well. we'll see. if so, we'll have birth control for 5 years. crazy.

anyhow i'm tired and i dont feel like typing anymore. eventually i'll get back into the swing of blogging.

oh hello blog

holy crap. i never get this much time to use the internet.

unfortunately this means my child will probably have me up ALL night, again.

so, i figure i'm going to continue writing here when i can because even though i'm not longer growing a fetus, i'm still, in a sense, "growing" my baby by feeding her and whatnot.

and p.s. breastfeeding sucks ass. i don't know how much longer i can do it, but i'm starting to think we're not cut out for this special bonding time. ugh, i hate that i'll feel like a total failure if i decide to give my child formula. damn you breastfeeding nazis for putting that idea into my head.